I'm really not one to write about my day, or how I'm feeling at the time. But heck, today was a good day, and I have time to just sit back and see just how much stuff is going on in my life.
/Job or Juvenescence\
I am a senior in high school. (only 2 months and 6 weeks away from graduating) What dose this mean to the average person? Am I a new coming adult, out to take on the world? or Am I still considered a kid, yet to experience the hardships and still needs to be sheltered. Even though it's the death roe of teen-hood, I am far from becoming an adult, but I sure need to act like one till I do. I beleve getting a job will help me get there. I'm planning on applying for a job in Lego Land or sign flipping. One side of my family is a tad conservative and work oriented, so you can guess which one wants me to become an adult the quickest. The other side wants me to live as much of my youth as possible; focus on school, go on trips, attend after school activities, ect. I....I know I have had a lot of time to be a child, maybe much more time then necessary but dose that mean I can't still just....
/Choice Solitude\
I have been a child more then a teen, and now I have several adult expectations. I don't blame anyone but myself for this overlap of my life's stages. I have been anti social for as long as I can remember, and missed out on the complete fun of being a teenager. Some times I feel like there was so much more I could have done. The only other excuse I can come up with, was my major focus on school. So much time spent in my rooms doing homework then just never leaving. I'd turn down offers to hang out, just so I could be by myself, when no one could criticize what I do for fun, and not have to worry about entertaining my friends( What would be fun about sitting there, watching me draw for hours? Or watch me train with swords? Or fallowing me to go skate boarding?) Basically anything I find actually fun to do, is solitary. I'll admit though, when I'm with my best friend, all my 'want to be alone' feelings goes away, and I enjoy being in her company. However we haven't hanged out much since we became seniors. Now I'm just indulging/rotting in the solitude of my one room.
I don't call it loneliness, that is for people who have no one to call.
I have plenty of people, I just don't call.
/Job or Juvenescence\
I am a senior in high school. (only 2 months and 6 weeks away from graduating) What dose this mean to the average person? Am I a new coming adult, out to take on the world? or Am I still considered a kid, yet to experience the hardships and still needs to be sheltered. Even though it's the death roe of teen-hood, I am far from becoming an adult, but I sure need to act like one till I do. I beleve getting a job will help me get there. I'm planning on applying for a job in Lego Land or sign flipping. One side of my family is a tad conservative and work oriented, so you can guess which one wants me to become an adult the quickest. The other side wants me to live as much of my youth as possible; focus on school, go on trips, attend after school activities, ect. I....I know I have had a lot of time to be a child, maybe much more time then necessary but dose that mean I can't still just....
/Choice Solitude\
I have been a child more then a teen, and now I have several adult expectations. I don't blame anyone but myself for this overlap of my life's stages. I have been anti social for as long as I can remember, and missed out on the complete fun of being a teenager. Some times I feel like there was so much more I could have done. The only other excuse I can come up with, was my major focus on school. So much time spent in my rooms doing homework then just never leaving. I'd turn down offers to hang out, just so I could be by myself, when no one could criticize what I do for fun, and not have to worry about entertaining my friends( What would be fun about sitting there, watching me draw for hours? Or watch me train with swords? Or fallowing me to go skate boarding?) Basically anything I find actually fun to do, is solitary. I'll admit though, when I'm with my best friend, all my 'want to be alone' feelings goes away, and I enjoy being in her company. However we haven't hanged out much since we became seniors. Now I'm just indulging/rotting in the solitude of my one room.
I don't call it loneliness, that is for people who have no one to call.
I have plenty of people, I just don't call.
